A post about my day
today was an alright day, the weather made me really happy. I was really tired though and i've been super busy. I'll prolly regret staying up this late tomorrow morning, but who am i kidding? I barely get any sleep anymore. I’m lucky if i get 5 hours. People weren’t joking when they said that you don’t sleep in college
I started off with my MCB midterm, which i know i did miserably in. A part of my has given up in school, and a part of me is just accepting the fact that i changed the grading options. I feel as if im still struggling with my transition to college. I expected my second semester to be better, in the sense of achieving higher grades. But honestly, i feel like it’s impossible to at least even get an A. But im working so so hard, and it’s the hardest i have ever worked.
After my MCB midterm i really felt like shit, and i walked out of wheeler and said to myself
You know what steph. If you don’t pass this class, it’s not going to ruin you. So i went to the GBC because i had a 20 min gap and i saw Aasim and we talked about school, and i really miss him. He’s like one of my best guy friends at Cal besides Eduardo, and i feel like he’s just disappeared.
Then i had dicussion for Psych and i went to Cafe 3 and ate lunch/did homework. Then i went to my MCB discussion which was STUPID AS FUCK BECAUSE WE JUST HAD A MIDTERM AND THERE WAS NOTHING TO GO OVER
anyways, i went to the SLC with my writing tutor and she helped me on my essay, and gave me some ideas on my research paper. Honestly im fucking scared. I strongly beleived that i was “decent’ at writing, but when i left high school, that idea was shattered and all of a sudden, papers that got A’s began to receive C’s.
Then i had choir at 5 and that rehearsal felt soooo long. Then i got out of choir and went to my scholarship meeting, which i haven’t been to since the beginning of the semester. I feel bad because i'm not as involved in my scholarship and i want to change that. When i got there, everyone greeted me and hugged me, and i felt so loved. I checked in with the director and she asked me if i was okay and i told her that honestly, im just struggling a lot. She told me that TAAP was there to support me, and that yes it’s rough but soon enough, i'll be doing better and graduating. And idk, i just felt so thankful to be a part of this scholarship. It’s like summer search all over again
After that i went to help with senior weekend stuff for RAZA, and i just really love RAZA. It’s the one community that makes me feel like i actualy have a place at Cal.
I hope tomorrow is an alright day too