I want to be better than the person i was yesterday
I just don’t understand why anyone would ever take advantage of me like this
I just wanna go under a rock
this past week was my first week of school and idk. It’s like, i honestly don’t think i can do this anymore. I declared a different major, and i’m still disappointed about not doing psych because that was one of my goals since sophomore year in high school. So much shit is going on and i feel like a lot of stuff are missing. Yesterday i heard some news before my first class of sophomore year, and it just ruined everything. It really sucks to still have feelings for someone who has lied to you, betrayed you, and disrespected you. It sucks to face a similar situation in life again where you have to let go of a friendship and just be fuckin strangers. I’m honestly at a point in my life where i just feel numb and fuckin bruised about many situations and i just don’t want to do this anymore. Like fuck talking about your feelings, no one understands my situations anyways so what’s the point of expressing how i feel. Even if i do talk to people about it, i feel like a fuckin burden.
Why does life keep throwing things at me that i don’t primarily deserve. Why do i keep facing situations that deeply hurt me.
This shit is unfair
the worst is having a dream where someone loves you and you can practically feel them touching you and it feels so real and then you wake up and it’s like the life is being sucked out of you and the happiness just drains out of your body and you feel empty again
the fact that over 300,000 other people know exactly what this feels like too is a source of great comfort
especially if it’s a kiss