tbh i just wanna be happy with my life, accept things for what they are, be toned, have good grades, clear skin, and go back to the DR. 

Ppl dont believe me when i say i WANT ABS


"It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on."

Nicholas Sparks (via quotes-shape-us)


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It was nice seeing my 2 bestfriends after so long. And yes I know you niggas are gonna see this. 

2  kind


I’ve always hated growing apart from people. You end up becoming two completely different individuals and it gets to a point where you just don’t meet eachother halfway anymore. You value different things and your tastes end up colliding. It’s not fair sometimes. Because nomatter how much you wish it didn’t turn out this way, the reality is that it is what it is. Acceptance is key, even if it means having to let go of those who were once so important to you.

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I guess i’m always living my life in nostalgia

But i just wish i could capture certain moments of happiness, and just relive them again. Kind of as a reminder to myself that happiness does kind of exist. I miss being able to sing everyday. Being in the choir room, and performing on the stage. The nights after award ceremonies where we would go to disneyland, run to space mountain, and walk through main street without a jacket because it was perfect weather.

When i was in elementary and i was naive and not so “politicized”. When i didn’t have a bigger perspective on social issues or poverty in developing countries. 

My summers in the 5th grade when i would go to Manteca and ride bikes through the neighborhoods with my aunt, as the sun faded. Or when we first moved here and i'd lay in bed listening to the sprinklers because it was peaceful.. as opposed to staying up because i'm contemplating my future and what i want to do with my life.

After soccer practices where it would be so hot, i'd come home and just sit outside and take off my sweaty shinguards, socks, and cleats. 

Certain moments in Oregon and the DR, where i felt like i could really fuckin do anything in my life. Meeting kids who made me smile. Looking at the stars in the wilderness even though it sounds so corny.

The feeling of summer search “feeling” new in my life, and always being excited for what is next. The feeling of Berkeley being new, and having summer bridge be a part of my life

When my grandpa was still alive and he would walk me to the school bus and wait for me after school under the trees to help me with my times tables. 

The feeling after i got my first medal in cross country and finally thinking im good enough for a sport if i work hard and stay consistent. 

It’s crazy how we feel like our life doesn’t have value sometimes because we get caught up in this monatonous routine that makes you wake up feeling vapid. But i keep typing and typing and i guess there are good moments. I just wish i could relive them. 


Hairdresser: do you like it?
Me: yes thank you

*goes home and cries*

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