February 2012
5:14
& i cant sleep. The smell of coffee can be smelled through the vents of my house. My legs are aching. My thoughts are running. My mind is exhausted. Everyone left to work. Im home alone. And i cant sleep
I really just want to be done with Junior year right now. I don’t think i’ve ever stressed out or been so tired in my life.
I swear
if there is ANYONE, on the face of this planet that takes the most embarrassing, ugly, and HILARIOUS, pictures. It’s me and Hailee. I mean i thought the ones on her iphone were bad at Ericas house. But i’m going through the ones on tour. Oh jesus, they ARE SO FUCKING UGLY. And the sad part is, we will cry about how hilarious they are. We will cry streams of tears over how fucking...
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Today Turtle told me Hamids hands felt like clouds. So i gave him a high five, and they WERE LIKE CLOUDS. Idk why i’m posting this, but i thought it was really funny.
I’m not sure why, but at the end of the day this is something i can’t let go of, even though i tell myself i quit a long time ago. I just can’t make myself leave. Something just keeps me around, and i’m not sure what.
We should all just go star gazing on the roof of Eden Gardens for hours, and talk about our hopes, fears, and dreams. Something about a roof and stars. It’s quite calming
I’m not sure where i see myself anymore. I was so sure on many things back in the day. My freshman year i knew for sure i wanted to go to a UC and major in some type of category of sociology, and i still kinda do. I was sure i wanted to get the hell out of Hayward and leave to a different city. But when the future is fast approaching, it does nothing but cause sweaty palms and my pulse to...
I hate the nights where i truly feel alone. And all my thoughts are bottled in my head keeping me awake. I question who i am, where im going, and what i love to do. I question why im here and doing everything i do. I question why im sad, or why i feel the way i feel. I lay in my living room floor and look up at the ceiling feeling pathetic and not wanting to face the next day and the same...
omg
my mind can’t concentrate. For the past 5 hours it’s just been jumping to situations, and thoughts of the week. Womens Golden State, third sat thing, getting to womens golden state on my own, csf thing, apush test, finishing up the review, going to track this week, getting my permit,getting up my math grade from last semester, feeling guilty for not doing my math homework, and more...
Worst Feelings
Not PR’ing when you race.
Waking up in the middle of the night and realizing you have to wake up soon.
Knowing that you’re being lied to
Not being worth the truth
Being insulted on something that makes you really self conscious.
When you study hard for a test, and still fail.
When the person in front of you at the movie theater blocks your view
Losing a friend
Being...
It’s crazy to think that the happiest days of our lives haven’t even came yet.
Saklan
was the street name, and the first house i lived in for the first 9 years of my life. And those 9 years were absolutely wonderful.
My house was old, and had been bought by my dad. Most of my family lived together when they first came to the U.S, until they decided to move out and be on their own.
Our house wasn’t beautiful. But the memories that were created there make me miss my childhood...
4 more months. Just four more months.
i-just-wannarun:
what is a runner? A runner isn’t just someone who runs. They can with stand the extremes. geographically, physically, socially, and mentally. They are strong. They are independent. They do good for themselves, sometimes with or without motivation. They face pain with pain. Running against what they are running for.
I don’t get mad often really. But today. I was almost sure, I was going to kill Hailee.
I’m looking at prom dresses online just for fun right now. And oh god <3 There is soo soo many options. I really want to go with either a teal or coral color.I want it to be a sweetheart neckline, and be above the knee. I can’t wait until Senior prom and when all my friends go, and they look so fucking beautiful and they all have their beautiful dates. And their hair is gorgeous,...
Theirs no room to be sad today. Gonna pull through with some homework, studying, and more homework. Clean my room. Study a bit for SAT’S, and permit again. Clean my room a bit, then head out to the taco night with Hailee and Ocho! Sadies was tres tresss fun! Happy Saturday ^_^
I Will Follow You Into The Dark- Death Cab For...
i know it’s horrible, but i can’t help but sit here and reminisce on the past and have this longing to go back to the things that made me very happy or made me feel happy within that moment of time.
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give...
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I’m sorry. But i just don’t want to like, love, or have anything to do with someone for the longest time. I’ll do that when i’m ready to open up again and trust someone, and that won’t be for a long time. I’ll do that when i’m ready to give someone my all again, and try. I’ll do that when i’m ready to write someone nice letters again with nice...
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Expectations vs Reality
The picture in my mind needs to go away. It really does, and if it doesn’t it will definitely fuck me up even more. All along i’ve had hopes for something to happen, or hopes to go to a certain place, or hopes to just accomplish the things i wanted, but it doesn’t happen. And i create this mental image in my mind, and i go to sleep thinking about it every night and i wait and i...
This Girl
Siyou: God Stephanie, only shit like this happens to me seriously. I shoulda just been a damn fucking plant so i coulda been asexual and shit. And screw valentines today. SCREW IT. White boys will just take your heart and rip it into pieces! Their so fucking stupid and they don’t care about your feelings. Never ever ever again! I am foreal forever alone like honestly. forever alone. Fuck...
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myforestlove:
Temper Trap -Down River
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Anonymous asked: Could you list 15 things that make you happy, brighten your day, or make it worth while to get out of bed in the morning?
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Green Tea
Started my morning by taking bart, and sitting next to Siyou and talking about nothing but things that irritate us. SAT academy was actually okay today. I had fun playing jeopardy, and i got close to my group. I’m glad i’m in APUSH because i was on a role when we had to name certain topics that could fit the essay.
Second night of Rock of Ages, and it was great.
Maata was a wonderful...
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I’m sorry, but i think i deserve an explanation from you.
And i can’t believe you haven’t stepped up and done it yet. It’s friken ridiculous. I’m supposed to be one of your closest friends. In fact, i’m one of your best friends, but lately it hasn’t even seemed like it. I got so used to being around you all the time and talking to you everyday. Telling...
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Only Lorenzo would tell me this
“Stephanie i really like how you’re working those jeans for dessert theater. I mean on other girls black jeans would look weird, but with you you’re actually working it. It’s like saying “I’m not a lesbian, but i can still kick your ass” “
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It was a good day| Ice cube